[permatext - also Marluxia got another journal]

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

I wonder. How long have some of you been in this place? What are your homes like? Do you miss them?

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[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

...long enough. How long have you been here?

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

Long enough to become a bit homesick, unfortunately.

[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

And where's your home? Maybe you'll get lucky and one of the floors will be yours.

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

A place with sprawling fields filled with the most beautiful flowers you have ever seen. I doubt I would want to see it here. From what others have said when they visited their worlds, it just isn't the same. That hollow memory... I could not bear the thought.

[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

Hollow memory, huh... so nothing's sacred in this place. It's all just a fake?

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

From what I can understand. Everything made of memories. If it were real, others would not feel that way, would they?

[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

I think reality is what we make it.

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

Reality? If all there is to these worlds is what people say, it doesn't seem real to them, either. And I must say, a life trapped within walls of lies does not seem like much of a life to me at all.

[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

I'll make it real. If we're truly trapped here like you seem so happy to claim, I'll make it a world worth being trapped in.

The Organization brought so many of us from so many worlds for reasons known only to them. But they made a mistake. It's because of them that I've found allies I never would have met before, people who give me more strength than I ever would have had on my own. Being trapped here has only made me better.

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

So you would stay here forever? Even meeting others, some do not consider leaving those at home behind a course to consider.

[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

That's why I said if we're trapped. I don't believe we are.

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

You don't?

[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

If there's an entrance, there's an exit. Even if I have to tear one open with my own two hands. Weren't you listening? They made a mistake, bringing us all together in one place. Together, we're unstoppable.

You should remember that.

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

I suppose there are some here with determination after all.

[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

I have a reason to fight. Do you?

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

Is the ability to be free not enough?

[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

It would, if I believed you were who you said you are.

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

I would consider it difficult to say who I am when I haven't introduced myself.

[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

It's not hard to guess. A mysterious person posts to the message board for the first time. They don't seem alarmed or perturbed like the usual newcomer. But they clearly can't be one of the natives...too much personality. Others may see this post as simple curiosity, but it feels more like stirring the pot to me.

So perhaps you're one of the more shadier characters, those who are less interested in going home than they are playing with people. But they're a lot more upfront about who they are. They want the credit. You don't.

The only other possibility is...

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

Is that I am someone who has only used the journal for a map? That I prefer to keep calm rather than run around panicked like a fool? Or that I may have posted something in the past that you have simply missed?

If you want to come to quick conclusions over who is who you may be my guest. I don't take kindly to being accused of being "shady" when all I have are simple questions.

[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

Right. You'll have to forgive me my paranoia. It's been a game of sorts for the Organization to taunt us and confuse us with half-truths and false leads. They're nothing if not predictable, after all.

But I suppose if you were one of them, you'd already know the answers to your questions, wouldn't you?

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

And where did I say you had no right to be paranoid? I do not appreciate being accused for simple question. And I do not see what anyone would do with this information even if they were to acquire it. What is so important about knowing where others come from?

[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

...anything of ourselves given freely or otherwise can be used against us in this place.

[11deadlypetals.livejournal.com]

All the more reason I would prefer to leave as soon as possible. You may be able to make it a better place, but I would personally never be comfortable here.

[Voice]

[tenshinomakai.livejournal.com]

[good job, mysterious not-Marluxia, now she doesn't know what to think] ...hm.

Well, even if I'm fine being here for awhile, I'm not complacent. For the sake of the people I care about, I'll find a way to get them home. Even if it means saying goodbye.